Betrayal 

There was only so much she could do. As much as her soul denied the eye witnessing the truth, her egoistic mind was stubbon to remain angry. For she knew once the anger fades away, her heart will ache, breaking down the wall of tears, bringing around a feeling which would be probably be tougher to exit from. It was difficult – seeing her husband hand in hand with another woman at what used to be their favorite café.

The last time she was there with him, they were madly in love with each other. 6 years down their perfect marriage, as she crossed the pavement glancing inside the place, she was slapped hard with betrayal. Getting hit by a truck would have been less painful.

“Mama, what happened? You look sick”. Her chain of soul-destucting thoughts came to a halt as she heard a sweet voice of her daughter rushing to embrace with her tiny body.

“Nothing honey. I was just wondering about us taking a long holiday at your grandparents farm this year.”

Path of Shattered Hearts

As she lay on the bloody mat sheets on the maternity ward..

As she heard the wailings of labor pain from the bed next door..

As she felt the hushed mutterings of tired prayers from her mother father husband and brother..

As she watched the doctors exchanging tensed glances between her legs stretched wide apart..

As her face got moist from the well of the tears overflowing from her eyes..

..she realized that God has chosen a separated path for her and her baby yet again.

As she saw her third stillborn baby for the first time, a piece of her already broken heart was going away with him, leaving her soul hopeless and shattered than ever this time.

Single mothers: The real heroes

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So, my husband woke up this morning to find me reading an article on how to be a single mom in college on my laptop. The irony! Obviously, a good morning was replaced with a very confused “what are you up to?”

A long-lost friend of mine from Bangalore called me last night, asking if I knew any accommodation near a certain college in Jaipur. Curious than ever, I asked her who was the person she was so keenly helping to find a place, for that she had no idea she’s calling that late at night. What I heard next stumbled me in words and brought questions at my lips that I, thankfully, managed to zip. The last time I talked to her she was happily married with a year-old son. Her phone call, after somewhat 2 years, declared that she was now a single mother helplessly searching for colleges to complete her graduation that she had had left during an in-love-enough-to-dropout-and-marry enthusiasm.

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When India Lets You Down

“But you’re an Indian,” he said. I don’t know whether it was what he said or the tone he used that made me feel a strong urge to box his face in front of 32 members of our college’s debate club. Fabian and I never got along well together, but after this incident, things changed between him and me—we became the worst enemies ever.

It can be a boon as well as a challenge to be brought up abroad and be surrounded by a transnational environment in university. It is like representing my motherland in front of other nationalities through the way I live, communicate and behave. Sure, I had lived my life in Thailand but deep within I am still an Indian. A faint criticism against my country could easily exacerbate me. I guess that’s why Fabian got into trouble that day.

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Together

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Together their dreams took beautiful course, as he heard wails of a child buzzing out from the maternity ward. This time, it was finally a girl..

It’s funny how a having a girl child in India still raises many eyebrows among those gossiping grannies. I remember few relatives of mine from older generations, coming up to me and saying, “oh..never mind. She’s a first child after all. Second will definitely be a boy”. I swear if they weren’t relatives from my husband’s side, I would have punched their nose hard. Why were they feeling sorry for me when I was on cloud nine instead? I was happy. I felt wonderful. Period. I didn’t want ANYBODY questioning my happiness and my life ahead based on my child’s sex.

For a country with second highest population growth and a whooping 74.04% literacy rate, India is still miles behind. May God bless the mentality of those relatives and may there be more and more girls proving themselves.

On that note, what kind of response would you give when a person sympathizes with you because apparently, you gave born to a girl child?

Perplexed 

Her strange stare perplexed me. From a fun loving woman to a saddening soul trapped in a body, the sudden transition piqued my mind as every second she stood there facing me. I wanted to leap towards her, punching her hard before balancing on the ground. But this wasn’t the time. I wanted to know what happened inside the room a couple of minutes ago before I lost my grip on anger. She was testing my patience. No, her emotional state was testing my patience.

“So what did he say?”, I shouted from the car parked adjacent to his big bungalow.

“He wants me to abort the baby”, came the answer.

I told you so…I wanted to scream. I wanted to give her an account of the number of times I warned her about that evil man. I wanted to go inside the house and slap him hard on face. I wanted him to cry till his eyes bled and apologize. I wanted him to take responsibility of his act. I wanted him to be as happy about the baby as her, BUT FIRST, I wanted him dead at that moment, killing him myself.

Instead, I walked out of my car and embraced her. Perplexities had just begun.